Today, I am unemployed, I live at home with my family, I am separated from the woman that I married, and we will most likely be divorced after September, our one year legal separation month.
That’s where I am right now.
I am also at peace, consciously awake, focused, driven, and taking the correct steps to live a life that’s right for me, a life that is productive and gives back to my family, and the planet all that I have been blessed with up to this point.
I can’t honestly say that I’m not afraid and depressed some mornings when I wake up and I’m still hunting for a new job, I’m just not built for lounging around every day, but I get myself up and back on this computer sending out resumes and returning calls because I know that this is part of my process.
Part of the plan to get me to exactly where I am supposed to be in this life.
I can’t honestly say that I’ve never been here at this point before, because I have been, I have put myself in this exact spot by not being completely honest with myself and facing my demons and begininning the work to do what it takes to make things right.
So, I get up every day with a smile on my face, hope in my heart, prepared for the next step. I know that I will get the call when and only when I am truly ready.
So my last real post to this space was on October 28, 2013. I mean the last real “honest” substantive post. A lot has happened in my life since that post, and one of the main reasons that I have accepted about why I haven’t posted or written anything in this space is that I have had to accept that I’m basically a liar, and mostly I lie to myself.
I don’t mean malicious and mean type of lies. I’m talking delusional, life destroying lies. I have never meant any harm to myself or another human on this earth, but I’ve done my fair share of damage, by simply not being honest with myself. That has to stop now, today or that’s it, I won’t be around much longer.
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No hate, but I’ve never been to the continent of Africa and I don’t know of any family members from Africa. So, that’s the probably the difference. Just think about it a little bit……….
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